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The Kingdom of God: 4 – The Kingdom Statements of Jesus

7 Last Words of Jesus from the Cross - HubPagesMy dad was a great example of this. No one could deny that he was one of the most faithful and giving persons when it came to being in service to his Catholic faith. He spent his entire life in service, as a christian mysticism Cub Scout master when i was a kid, and later as a volunteer at the food pantry, part of the Catholic Social Services. He attended Mass and took Holy Communion faithfully, raised a family of ten, putting them all through parochial schools. And in the later years of his life, he increased his attendance to Mass to nearly everyday. He never boasted about any of this. In fact, he just quietly fulfilled his duties. And when my mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease, he became the most loyal husband there ever was. He kept her home as long as he possibly could and when he finally had to put her into a home, he went there everyday to feed her a meal. Yes, my dad was a standard for what it means to be a faithful servant to Jesus.

However, despite all this, he contracted cancer and had to go through several Chemo treatments. He lost his hair and his energy was drained. Even then he still continued with his commitment to serve the church as much as possible. In addition to cancer he had a few heart attacks, one required four stints to be placed in his heart, and all of these experiences made him very tired. Eventually, when my mom died after several years with Alzheimer's, this took the wind out of his sails and he was dead within four months. The truth is, on a deep level within his being, dad was the creator of all this. On the deepest level of our being, we all choose how we want our body to die. It doesn't have to be painful but it so often is because of deep-seated beliefs that we carry without realizing it, beliefs that are anti-life, beliefs in the need to suffer in order to earn a spot in heaven.

Now, because we have historically been so stuck in the victim mindset, what my dad went through is very common. It happens to many and when the rest of us see it we can't help but wonder why. "Why my dad of all people dear God? You know he was the most loyal of sons. Did you feel I needed to see him suffer so I'd know how much you loved him? Or did you want him to suffer so you could finally absolve all his sins once and for all, finally making him worthy of heaven? Or what? What was the reason he suffered? " There's a need to know the answer to such questions but there is never a satisfactory answer because any religion that teaches we are separate from the divine cannot provide an answer. But I knew. I saw my dad for the amazing divine creator that he was. I loved the divine in him. And my compassion for him was to allow him to choose that which he wanted. And I knew that his need to be in service to God which included his need to suffer, came from a feeling of being unworthy at the deepest level of his being. There was a time when i shared this same unworthiness and need to sacrifice myself for God. It was an attempt to earn God's approval. He never felt he was good enough. And this is what kept him from being content with the now moment rather than feeling he always had to be doing more.

When the now moment isn't good enough, you're always looking outside yourself for salvation from it-because it's not good enough. So you want something, anything, to come along and take you out of this not good enough moment. And when something wonderful does come along, you revel in it, but only for a short time. It's not long before a feeling of potential loss creeps in. This feeling says, "this is nice, but soon it will be over. " So even the wonderful feeling isn't good enough. And it causes sadness when it's over and there's the feeling of wanting to re-create it so you can feel good again. Then you continually look back to the past in an attempt to re-create it in the future so you can finally enjoy your now moment. Yet, should you succeed in re-creating it, it's still not good enough because it doesn't last. You cannot hang onto any experience. The belief in being a victim in need of salvation creates this dilemma-this illusion of life never being good enough which causes a need to always look outside yourself for something better. It's truly anti-life.

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